Anxiety has finally struck again, and this time worse than ever before…

I am an only child who struggled with anxiety horribly through out my life until I turned about 19. When I was a child my parents took me to the doctor because I constantly complained about stomach aches. I wouldn’t follow through with any of the testing because I was so anxious. I used to wake up in the middle of the night feeling as if I was going to throw up all the time. I never wanted to leave home. My parents made changes to my diet by restricting me from eating junk food and the idea of progress and a dietary change must’ve helped immensely with my anxiety because for years and years after that I never had stomach issues. I would still be scared to throw up when I had the flu or a really bad hangover (once I got older and started drinking) but no constant anxiety like I had when I was around 8.

From 19 until about 2 months ago (I’m 23 now), I had 0 issues with my stomach bothering me or being upset and hardly any major issues with anxiety outside of travelling on a plane alone for the first time and a few job interviews, but that was typical to me, and I got over those bumps! Anyway fast forward the long story, I have an intestinal virus at the moment that is making me nauseas almost 24 hours of every day (unless I keep busy and my mind off of things) and it’s triggering my anxiety to be back like it was when I was around the age 8 and had stomach issues before. I hardly want to go anywhere or do anything. I felt sick at my cottage and my girlfriends cottage as well so I’m scared to go back to hers or mine. I don’t want to stay out anywhere besides home because of the fear of feeling super sick away from home. I feel scared to eat food because I get nauseas after that. I feel scared to use the bathroom because I feel nauseas during those times as well…. I’ve been to the hospital and have done some testing and apparently nothing major is wrong with me. This intestinal virus seems to have lasted longer than they anticipated so I have to wait for my family doctor to get back from vacation so I can see my results.

As you can all probably tell this is triggering my anxiety so bad it’s ruining my life and my summer. I am so worried about this anxiety that I don’t know how to overcome it or how I ever over came it when I was younger. I’m 23 now and I feel like I’m as anxious as little 8 year old me once was. Has anyone else struggled from anxiety triggered by sicknesses? How should I deal with this? I don’t want to allow this to cripple my life like it did as a child. This is also the first time my girlfriend has ever seen me so anxious, and though she’s being an incredible supporter, I don’t want to freak her out with my anxiety!

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